“Happiness is not a matter of intensity, but of balance, order, rhythm and harmony.”
I’m Dominika and in this little corner of the internet, I write about marriage, motherhood, faith, food, books, culture and sometimes a collision of all those things at once.
A little background for this blog:
One February evening almost two years ago, I told my husband, “I don’t need to take a pregnancy test. I knooowww I’m pregnant.” But I did and when I looked at that little plastic stick with its irrefutable, unwavering lines, the truth that a massive physical and metaphysical change in my life was taking place hit me with full force. I was happily married (still am), wanted babies (still want more), and yet it was frightening to have life as I knew it turned on its head. (I’m convinced the discovery of your first pregnancy is always accompanied by a good dose of shock.)
I was afraid that in becoming a mother, I’d never chase my other thousand and one dreams outside of motherhood. But then I thought of my grandmothers who had seven and four children respectively and lived the way I ultimately want to live: prayerfully, lovingly, and attentively.
Later in the year, one of my grandmothers passed away followed by my other grandmother a few months after my son was born. During late night and early morning feedings while dealing with the loss of these two women, these pillars of my spiritual imagination, I reflected on motherhood, on love, on vocations, and on how I truly want to live. Then on my phone one morning at 3am, I started writing out my reflections and recording my quiet quest for balance, order, rhythm, and harmony. For happiness.
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